Saying goodbye to the anorexia

Exactly one year ago, give a day or two, I relapsed yet again, hopefully for the last time ever. I have lost 5 years of my life to this illness and I refuse to listen to my anorexia. Since relapsing I have developed and intensified my countless other mental illnesses. But I will not do this anymore. I hope I never relapse. I don’t want to be anorexic anymore, I don’t want to be skinny, I don’t want to sick and I definitely don’t want to waste anymore of my life. I am so much more than my anorexia and each day I get stronger and it gets weaker. I look back on my relapse with sadness. That I thought that was the answer to my misfortune. I am recovering (almost recovered from my anorexia) because I love laughing, I love writing, reading, being cosy and warm, comfortable, safe and happy. I am recovering and I WILL recover. Goodbye anorexia, this is me finally letting go.

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8 thoughts on “Saying goodbye to the anorexia

  1. Love, love, love this! I need to write a post but haven’t because, you know, I’m finally living life! I had no idea how much time was lost due to my obsession, wow!! Reading this is such a pleasure.

    I’m with you sister!

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  2. This nearly made me cry. I have just been diagnosed with anorexia and I hate being this way, feeling like this, etc, but I feel so helpless to it. It is affecting every single part of my life. I hope I can be as strong as you in the future – I know a relapse must be disappointing, but knowing you are capable of recovery must give you strength. You are amazing.

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